I more than every firmly believe that God puts certain people in your life randomly, that you’re supposed to meet and they show you in their own way how life will get better.
I’m not saying I’m totally over Patrick, because I’m not. I still deep down-inside love him more than anyone would ever know. I know our relationship deserved better and I know at times we deserved to have treated each other better. I know there’s still that part of my heart that will wish, hope and pray every night that one day he will finally wake up and just see how nice of a person I am and how much fun we had for so long, together and that our relationship wasn’t always arguing.
Where im getting with this is, is that I met someone last week, (who will remain nameless), and I didn’t know much about her. I seen her again today and we talked and I got to know her better. i talked to her about a certain person who was always poking into Patrick’s and My relationship.., always making something difficult and ultimately broke down my boyfriend everyone around her and him and made me out to be some horrible person. I’ve heard several times from him when we got into fights “And this is why my friends don’t like you!” or “I knew i should have listened to my friends” Well… Your friends never took the chance to get to know me. They (her) acted on what they were told, what that had only witnessed once, and then turned into something much more than it ever once. Pretty much made him feel so uncomfortable that it made him feel like he couldn’t be with me, because they didn’t like me and they would tell him not to be with me.
Yes, that is up to him in the end to make that choice. But, The person i talked to said that my ex’s friends wife has always been like this throughout her whole life, she was never friendly in highschool, very hard to get along with, always being a bitch and never giving anyone the time of day. So in the end I feel better about myself because I truly know that she is making him believe I’m some horrible person when i’m not and one day he will break out of his sleep and realize that i’m an okay girl.
anyways DOD5 in about 6 hours. zZzz sleep time.
ps this post was not re-read probably some major errors and things that dont make sense… ill fix it sunday or tomorrow night
